Tis the season ....

Tis the season for some to be jolly while others just figure christmas is too much to deal with, cancel it and think that because they dont want to be festive and make the most of what they have, like to spoil the season for others with their selfish ways..

I have a friend that is sick... can't get better... is no cure and all that...i understand this.. but there is not one thing i can do about it... you know... im not a doctor... i don't have some miraculous healing powers.... and while she has not been doing the best recently... i do what i can by sending her my thoughts... telling her i hope she is feeling better and that she is okay... isnt that what your meant to do!? Being supportive!?!.. i thought that was a friends role... well... obviously i had that arse about face and upside down even because, for sending her wishes hoping she was okay got my arse chewed out and spoken to like a stupid 10 year old, it was all spelled out to me "what life is like" it almost seemed i was expected to go on the same ride of pity that she seems to have boarded and because i had otped to go with "hope" that i was some how a traitor..
Well.. thats not me... if i cant fix something i try to be positive... and hope... that is the one thing we all have... right!?

I have another friend... her sister in law for most of the time i have known this friend has been struggling with cancer... yes, cancer has a cure... sometimes... but regardless... this lady has been really sick... but the difference with her is that she didnt give up on the world and will it to open up and swallow her whole... she held onto hope... looked to the parts of her life that she could fix... do something about... and fought on.... and you know what... she lived life to its fullest and didn't dwell and let her self be pulled into that ugly place where depression dwells...

I really don't know what to do in my situation... do you sit back and be someones sounding board every time they have a bad day... be treated like crap for doing what you do and "hope" or do you do what i did and tell them that it hurt... open them up to the fact that you see them as selfish for the way they are acting about something that you just damn well cant fix.
I love this woman like she were my own flesh and blood sister though do i deserve to be abused every time she has a bad day!?
I guess none of this really matters since she has decided instead of facing the truth of how she has made me feel she has decided to be REALLY adult about this and ignore me like Miranda does when she doesnt get her own way.

I know that no one but me can answer what my head is asking but i guess.. it helps just to get it out..

Thanks for listening...


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afterthought: Now... back to my previous program of CHRISTMAS CHEER!
Merry Christmas Y'all!!!